It's funny how people blame you for the mistakes that you didnt even make. Or even blaming others for your mistakes that you learn from them. Being blamed for something small as going out one night when the other person goes out 4days in a row! Sometimes I just want to run away. I don't care if I have no roof over my head, no food supplied, no warmth or anything necessary to survive. As long as I can get the hell out of here. It's a not even a prison. it's a mental house. No way of escaping no freedom, just confined in one little area. It's even funnier how people can be stupid and not know. Selfish more so. People like to say they'll be there for you but when that time does come, they arem't there for you! Stupid meaningless words. Such words are just a sound to ym ear, doesn't mean jack SHIT to me anymore. Be angry, be dumb, be whatever you want, I won't care anymore. Waste your breathe on words you don't even mean. Whats the point of opening up when I know it's just gonna close again. I knew I shouldnt have trusted my feelings, nor follow it. It's just as stupid as others. Why waste the time and effort, I'm juts gonna go back and stay that way again.
It's irritating how people love to lie and deceive or even be annoying. Like shit man, how would you feel if someone did what you were doing to them!? Ever frigging thought of that you selfish moron! All you care about is you you you. Everything revolves around you! I honestly hate being apart of this dumb human race. I wish i were an animal so I could hunt humans! They are selfish and more of an animal than mots animals that exist. Every guy I see are ignorant idiotic things that only want and want and girls are stupid who want to be worth more than they actually are; and all they ever crave is attention. I bet there isn't a single ego male & female who never look in the mirror more than once within a day!
I don't give a damn if I have all this anger. I honestly wish to truly not exist. I still wonder why the fuck am I here? for on reason and one reason will I stay. And you who is obviously reading won't know that by reading this. so don;t even bother to ask me after ok. Because honestly I'll just never talk to yo, you nosey meddling thing.
What pisses the fuck off of me the most is when I am blamed for necessary things! I don't give a fuck, this is something I just want to type out right now. I went out all weekend, but not all day. I get screamed at for that. I cleaned, I took care of my little brothers so my older siblings can go out. Like wtf, I don't mind but wtf am I being blamed for, for going out? Why don't the older siblings get blamed for ANYTHING!?!? wtf is that about, I just seriously want to leave and see how the fuck they manage. For about 3years I have been babysitting my baby brother so my fucked up spoiled siblings can go out. Okay. This weekend my baby brother didn't come down until saturday afternoon. I just went out friday night. so did my siblings! Saturday had a christmas lunch party, then I went home in time to babysit. When I go home, both my siblings went out! Not ym fucking fault they didnt go out in the morning. So I stayed home and babysat. Sunday I came home from church, then they went out. LIKE WTF. they went out as much as I did, wait no...they went out LONGER. clubbing from friday to saturday then a party sunday. WTF I went clubbing friday, yah w.e just friday. saturday it was a christmas lunch! that was like 4hours, thens sunday church was 4hours again! They go out for more than fucking 6hours!
I'm honestly fed up. once more and I'm calling quits, I dont give a fuck anymore. For that reason I'll live for that reason I might leave also but come back for that reason. I don't give a fuck anymore.
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