New Years Eve =)

It's been a while since I wrote. With limited access to my computer it's very hard to write in my blog everyday without getting in trouble. Sometimes it sucks being young, because the older ones will always be right just because they were before you! It's ridicolous how most parents always favor the older one when it comes to life and other things! And how bossy and cruel the older ones are. They can make you do things, make you NOT do things, talk to you as if they were your guardian -_-" control you like you got no freedom when it comes to your life. What's even worst is when they ACT like your parent -_-" sigh...doesn't matter how much older they are, as long as they are older give them the right to act upon as our parents. That's why its always the young ones who die, who suffer, who run away... its so lame, and nothing can change that, sadly.

Well I didn't stop experimenting with food after declaring it in a previous blog so I will type about the results. Let me start with the first one.

I was craving pancakes that day so I decided to make some. I made some previously with my older sister and they turned out good =) But this time I added an extra ingredient just to see how it would taste. And oddly as it sounded I was making pancakes during lunch hour, haha. I slept in >.<" Well the extra ingredient added made it taste slightly better =) it was so yummy~ I didn't take pictures, so sorry folks you'll have to use your imagination =) It's easy making pancakes from scratch, but the hard part is flipping them. My flipping skills are horrible. so some of my pancakes came out...weird. But overall, it was a messy yet quick process =) And, pancakes cook FAST! I turn for a few seconds and go back and it was dark brown already! I didn't know, honestly! But then again, the heat was on high and pancakes Do cook fast xD Thankfully, I did not burn any ^-^v *pat on the head* hehe~

My other cooking experimentation was with my older sister. We made roast chicken, quick and lazy style :P I admit, I was feeling lazy, haha. We had a whole chicken, my sister cleaned it and managed the chicken, I just suggested things and mainly cleaned, because cooking with my sister is impossible for me. I just can't cook with her -_-" We didn't marinate it as much, but I did watch over it as it cooked and it turned out yummy =) Not much to comment about that.

Well, some guests are coming over to our house for a party that I didn't want to happen -_-" I just wanted a peaceful New Years Eve; relaxing at home with family or alone just like all my previous New years eve. Man oh well, things change -_-" anywho, time to go greet some guests. Happy Early New Year Everyone ^-^

Day 1; experimenting with food =)

So today was productive =) Didn't get to go boxing day shopping =[ well today made sushi and pretzels with Eva =) I'm baking the soft pretzels now, can't wait to dig in xD The sushi turned out yummy, made a lot and only ate half, lol. I will post 2 photo's of the sushi. LOL it was my first time making sushi and Eva had forgotten how to make it, so it was fun. We only made one type of roll that consisted of cucumber, carrot, crab meat, caviar, rice and seaweed(of course) =) The first sushi roll was really huge because we put a lot of rice xD but learning from that we put less rice =) And then it turned out yummy~ lol we made like 13 rolls ad cut them up, man it was so filling~

The pretzel is turning out okay. I taste tested one and it taste alright, doesnt look at pretty -_-" but I tried! Next time I gotta try harder!!!! But man making pretzel is a lot of work, but fun y'know :) I'm glad we made it because its so much cheaper to make at home. Man buying it outside is so pricey. It's basically dough, and customers pay like $5 for one!?!?! woww....hehe yup. That's all for now, and tomorrow mornings dish will be pancakes =D Look forward to it ^-^

*sushi photo will be posted later on tonight due to some difficulties ^-^*

Merry Christmass ~!! hehehe

Christmas morning never felt so good =) The time of year to celebrate many things ^-^ Last night opening gifts was really fun~ It doesn't matter what I get really, it's the thought that counts on how people chose that gift juts for me~ it was truly fun even though with no christmas tree, everyone opened gifts and smiled =) best family time together~

Today I'll be able to spend wit my with my mom ^-^ gong to go shopping~ woot another adventure xD haha. Hmm, got a new hair cut too. I cut it myself..it's not even but I like it =) New look, feels great~ haha yeah. I thought of a food challenge to blog about everyday! Since I love food, I decided to do something in my day that's related to food and experiment and post the results. The garlic incident wasn't one that I expected but it was my first so =) And a few days ago made a non egg non baked cheesecake =) brought it to the church christmas party and people liked it ^-^ hehe of course it was a cheesecake with cherry =) yummm~ now I'm craving it, haha.

Well either tomorrow morning or tonight I'm going to try to make a rose out of icing ^-^
May this holiday bring joy to everyone =)

Merry Christmas~!

So about 30minutes until christmas, excited, can't wait to open presents xD All my siblings are here with the absence of my mom and dad. Man yesterday and today has been really crazy, so bear with me as I write in this blog.

Yesterday I was trying to find some baking equipment I had purchased long ago, and since I know where everything goes, since I organized it (I sound so selfish lol). I managed to remember where I placed the equipment ( piping bags, tubes, cake decorating things). I had stored it in a box with others things. Upon opening the box I witnessed something terrible, nasty that reeked! And no, it wasn't a rodent of any sort, lol. It was rotten, old, nasty and brown! It was garlic -_-" I didn't know, seriously that garlic would expire and when it does, it looks brown, and liquid comes out of it 0.o! plus this horrific odor of rotten garlic. I couldn't comprehend it. I know it was in there for probably about 5months. So those who are reading...be aware of rotten garlic! Use it withing a month man, I'm serious >.<"" Well I threw everything that was in there, but my equipment. BUT I did clean my equipment..thoroughly =) The box, I just cleaned really really well and the odor is gone =) That was something that "spiced" up my day -_-" hehe. But yesterday was pretty fun too because I got to clean up the house nicely =) so its clean for christmas eve and christmas :) Man I did some last minute things and it's not fun -_-" lol

I'm thinking of baking cupcakes for people I know as a christmas gift along with a card, so writing on the cards is a tiring task ~! Well today has been really awesome. The best christmas eve ever!!! Morning went grocery shopping with family..had a few disagreements here and there but we pulled through =) Was suppose to have dinner with mom but something came up, so we didn't. But my brother who was in a different area brought food from a place called wing it! All 4 of us siblings, LOVE IT! Waiting for it nearly made me die of hunger, haha, but the wait was worth it xD enjoyed a meal with family =) Soon at 12 we will open gifts..YAY xD hehe And started watching a new anime. it's filled with fighting and action and the storyline is so cool~ well, I wanted to write in here earlier but due to distractions and being lazy as I am, I didnt write before. But christmas is in 10 minutes as I type.

May everyone have a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year =)

Hypocrites. Sometimes I wish ....

It's funny how people blame you for the mistakes that you didnt even make. Or even blaming others for your mistakes that you learn from them. Being blamed for something small as going out one night when the other person goes out 4days in a row! Sometimes I just want to run away. I don't care if I have no roof over my head, no food supplied, no warmth or anything necessary to survive. As long as I can get the hell out of here. It's a not even a prison. it's a mental house. No way of escaping no freedom, just confined in one little area. It's even funnier how people can be stupid and not know. Selfish more so. People like to say they'll be there for you but when that time does come, they arem't there for you! Stupid meaningless words. Such words are just a sound to ym ear, doesn't mean jack SHIT to me anymore. Be angry, be dumb, be whatever you want, I won't care anymore. Waste your breathe on words you don't even mean. Whats the point of opening up when I know it's just gonna close again. I knew I shouldnt have trusted my feelings, nor follow it. It's just as stupid as others. Why waste the time and effort, I'm juts gonna go back and stay that way again.

It's irritating how people love to lie and deceive or even be annoying. Like shit man, how would you feel if someone did what you were doing to them!? Ever frigging thought of that you selfish moron! All you care about is you you you. Everything revolves around you! I honestly hate being apart of this dumb human race. I wish i were an animal so I could hunt humans! They are selfish and more of an animal than mots animals that exist. Every guy I see are ignorant idiotic things that only want and want and girls are stupid who want to be worth more than they actually are; and all they ever crave is attention. I bet there isn't a single ego male & female who never look in the mirror more than once within a day!

I don't give a damn if I have all this anger. I honestly wish to truly not exist. I still wonder why the fuck am I here? for on reason and one reason will I stay. And you who is obviously reading won't know that by reading this. so don;t even bother to ask me after ok. Because honestly I'll just never talk to yo, you nosey meddling thing.

What pisses the fuck off of me the most is when I am blamed for necessary things! I don't give a fuck, this is something I just want to type out right now. I went out all weekend, but not all day. I get screamed at for that. I cleaned, I took care of my little brothers so my older siblings can go out. Like wtf, I don't mind but wtf am I being blamed for, for going out? Why don't the older siblings get blamed for ANYTHING!?!? wtf is that about, I just seriously want to leave and see how the fuck they manage. For about 3years I have been babysitting my baby brother so my fucked up spoiled siblings can go out. Okay. This weekend my baby brother didn't come down until saturday afternoon. I just went out friday night. so did my siblings! Saturday had a christmas lunch party, then I went home in time to babysit. When I go home, both my siblings went out! Not ym fucking fault they didnt go out in the morning. So I stayed home and babysat. Sunday I came home from church, then they went out. LIKE WTF. they went out as much as I did, wait no...they went out LONGER. clubbing from friday to saturday then a party sunday. WTF I went clubbing friday, yah w.e just friday. saturday it was a christmas lunch! that was like 4hours, thens sunday church was 4hours again! They go out for more than fucking 6hours!

I'm honestly fed up. once more and I'm calling quits, I dont give a fuck anymore. For that reason I'll live for that reason I might leave also but come back for that reason. I don't give a fuck anymore.

My adventure on the previous day

So it's late. My last post I had put that I will be going on an adventure hehe. I had to bus to my destination which was a mall called bramalea city centre. Fun & cold at the same time >.<" I reached the mall and I waited for my friend to meet with me =) Finally she arrives and we look around trying to find a jacket for me. I was very picky. I liked one thing about a coat but disliked something else about it. haha So it was tiring. had to choose then. Finally my friend helped me pick out a white warm jacket for only $15 =) Amazing. My budget for a jacket was around $50 and under =) but $15..hehe and I know I am cheap, but I just want a warm nice jacket =) It looks professional hehe. I never liked it until my friend made me try it on, so I give my thanks to her that I am amble to be warm and still look good during this winter season =) So stayed at the mall, then went elsewhere to shop. First visited value village to purchase some things for an upcoming sundya school children skit. Then we went to the dollar store and went down every aisle. yes every aisle haha because it was big and had various things that caught my eye =) Fun fun fun, then we went to get bubble tea since one of our friend was going away to America so we got together for him at bubble tea. It was fun, bubble tea was good =) But made me feel really cold. haha. My ride let me drive home today =) No one really teaches me how to drive only my ride does. I am grateful for his patronage of teaching me and letting me drive his car~ My driving skills are improving, I park, turn and spot my blind side much much better than before =) I can't wait to get my g2 license =) Driving is relaxing and fun...i think its the cure for the thoughts that run through my mind randomly. Just listening to music, strolling on the road...yes waste of gas but its so relaxing~! Tiring day, got home quite late and then had to tend to some dirty dishes, not a lot though, and made some fresh rice...mMmMm~ yay..this day made me a bit tired...hopefully I'll be able to get some rest tonight unlike last night...

Until then readers, goodnight and may your day be filled with joy =)

1st post; 3rd day.

I know my titles for my blogs may be annoying or people who actually read this can tell that this is my 1st post of the whatever day. But I put that title to encourage myself to write once or twice in my blog a day. Well, I am occupied with msn conversations its going to take me a while to finish this. And I've had previous comments on my previous blog. I shall write more of what's on my mind and I'm telling you whos' reading this my mind is very random =)

So, my day started off nicely. But last night I just couldnt seem to sleep. I laid in bed for maybe 2hours or more, I didnt check the time. I somehow fell asleep but then woke up and it was too early. I had my alarm set. When my alarm finally set I woke up. Weird thing is I woke up from a dream I still remember. It involved an old friend. So it was just weird. Anywho woke up, had my day planned out in my mind. did what I had to do daily in the morning =) I was going to go get my paycheck in another city that I had worked in but just to make sure my paycheck was there, I called. Surprisingly my paycheck is not available until later on. So I'm disappointed. Now I'm home, watched t.v. ate and now blogging, lol. But Later on I have plans with a girl friend =) So that should be a adventure to write about when I get back ^-^

This weekend will be busy for me. Thinking about it actually gives me a bit of a headache. I think the reason I couldn't sleep last night is because I had so much things on my mind...I can usually make my mind go blank so I can rest. But lately my mind has been like a zoo, full of things and such...as hard as i try to think blank I can't. Some of the thoughts I have would be ok there's the plan for tomorrow. Or should I go out on that day? What would be best for those around me? And things such as ok im going out this day and that day I need to stay home to balance out time with family and friends? Or what would I do if someone visited me? Weird thoughts..things like what do I have planned for my future? I dont know, all these thoughts are so deep...

Sometimes I think about the blessings I have. People and things that make me feel blessed to have. And thats what keeps me standing. You are weak on your own sometimes but with the guidance of others and help you'll be able to stand again once you fell. Well It's time to head out to embark on my journey to the mall =P yayy =) blog ya lator xD hehhee

2nd post of the 2nd day=)

So I got 8minutes to post this blog since its 11:52pm. lol so for now i will talk about my day and possibly what goes on my mind =) i have bad typing skills, so this might not be long LOL. Well the day it starts off with this feeling of wanting to clean because what I see, I dont like. So I clean here and there get things done that should've been done long time ago =) It started to snow today..make my heart warm for some reason. lol snow is like the sun to me bright and warm. As odd as it sounds I think it makes sense =) Well christmas is coming soon, everyone is busy and almost every store is packed with people -_-" long line-ups. Went to Wal-Mart today and bought ingredients for a egg-less cheesecake. Made it at home, tasted delicious hehe and baked some croissants! They're on sale at Wal-Mart for $1 each! in canada that is. I'm not sure how much it is in the U.S. =P Well after all that had a nice meeting as young professionals for church. It was serious and intense. Get's you thinking...and my thoughts were just consumed with various things I dont even know where to start. With such little time I dont feel like typing it all out =P

So someone special has been on my mind making me wonder a lot. But in a good way, lol This whole week is gonna be crazy...

Well until tomorrow. I have yet to give myself a challenge to write about everyday in this blog =)

1st post of the 2nd day.

Second day. Can't sleep its 12:13AM lol. Things going on my mind. I wonder what challenge I should put myself up for that I can blog about everyday? =) Currently learning how to play an acoustic guitar and a keyboard. And I'm trying to enhance my chef skills & knowledge.

I'm either thinking a music challenge or cooking challenge. Or both? lol. suggestions? I love them all equally but i do love cooking more. and I've been self learning on my own how to play the keyboard with the guidance of lesson books that people gave me. Hmm, I guess I'll figure it out in the morning

My first Day

My first time & day creating a blog. Quite interesting. With a lot of time on my hands I will blog the things I challenge myself each day. Thank you for reading, and welcome to jullais world =)